Fine Time

Fine Time; an appropriate song for the weekend that just passed.

For the first time, I had been completely caught off-guard, and my heart was beating a little too fast the whole time. 

For the first time, I had felt wanted beyond recognition by someone whom I'm not dating, and who isn't my boyfriend. 

The feeling was unbelievably good. I couldn't think, I didn't want to think, actually. I just wanted to enjoy the evening, and he made sure I did. 

I was looking at him the whole evening, and I thought to myself "Where had he been all this time? Why does he do all this only now?" I wanted to grab him from across the table, and hug him like there's no tomorrow, but of course I didn't. I had to keep whatever dignity I had left in front of him. 

This man has known me for over a decade, and he knows all the nitty-gritty details of my so-called life, but I couldn't completely understand how he could've looked past all that, and still chose to give me a night to remember. His actions were all too natural, and he kept on giving me stolen glances the whole time, which I reciprocated in the same manner. I honestly felt giddy beyond comprehension, and I'm happy to say he felt the same way; at least we were on the same boat on that aspect. 

I teased him endlessly about getting the idea from Mr. Zoren Legaspi, and his answer again, caught me off-guard. He said:

"Gets ko yung point ni Zoren eh. Kapag may dumating sa buhay mo na tao na worth more than you've ever dreamed or wanted, you would be able to do things na hindi normal para sa'yo. You will think of endless ways to make that person feel special, kasi para sa'yo, sobrang special siya. You want to make her smile, to make her feel loved, and to treat her the way she deserves to be treated. Ganun lang yun."

For a couple of weeks now, ever since we started spending time together again, I have tried all ways I know just to NOT FEEL anything beyond friendship from him. I have done my fair share of avoiding any topics that might be more intimate, or too personal. I have brushed off too many compliments, too many sweet-nothings, and I have failed miserably; or not. 

I don't know where this is heading, but all I know is that this is a new thing for me. No green jokes, no exaggerated and uncalled for flirty messages, no aggressiveness, no forced sweetness; just pure and innocent expression of feelings, good vibes, and awesome company shared between two long-lost best friends. 

Who am I to question all those? :)