Strangers, but not quite.

You know that moment when everything else zooms in, and you focus your soul to just one person, one face, one voice? You stop breathing when you really don't, and you seem stuck in that moment, when really, the world is still moving, still normal. You lose a part of you that you can't point at, you just know you lost something. You drown out all the noise, leaving you deaf for a split second. You stare and let the moment swallow you whole. You snap out of it, and you know that you'll never be the same person you were ever again. You have become one with that person, and you don't even know it. 

His mere presence pushes you over the edge, and you can't find the right words to describe how he makes you feel. You are lost in translation every time his mouth opens, and you watch as he swallows, and purses his lips when speaking. You know his every move, his every gesture, his every angle. You memorize his words, retain everything in your head. You get lost in his arms, and you waiver when he comes close. You lose all sense of reasoning, all your principles suddenly misguided. You look for any doors out, but like an accidental maze, each door you stumble upon just leads to another pitchdark room, and you move your hands around, trying to reach any walls, and eventually you will find another door. No surprises. 

You hesitate for a moment, but you know that your hands are too itching to not open it, so you do. A neverending cycle that you will never get used to, because you don't want to get used to it. You don't, but you crave for the excitement, and as depressing as it might be, you can't let go of the thrill of not knowing, You have become complacent with all the drama, and you just enjoy the knowledge of somehow having a hold on that person, as unexplainable as it may be. 

You are contented with knowing you coexist, without even wanting to be in a committed and exclusive relationship. The more you stay away, the more you are pulled by an almost non-existent yet undeniable force. Your eyes meet, and once again, you dive into a chaotic pool of emotions; an undying quicksand. 

You spend sleepless nights, tossing and turning around, wondering the endless what-ifs, the occasional sudden outbursts. You know deep inside that this is the only connection you will only have with that person; nothing more, nothing less. You will always be that *something*, just because no words have yet been discovered to label your set-up, your whatever-it-really-is. It's not quite love, but it's not less than love either. It's just that awkward *something*, that could remain just that until it's no longer there, if it will ever go away. 

Until then, beautiful stranger... 

The Ugly Truth: On Friendships

Never waste your time with people who spend more time judging you than actually letting you be. Friends can be misleading, you must be very careful. There will always be tests of friendships from time to time; you have to be very attentive to the real lesson for each problem you might encounter. 

Your friends might be the best company in this world but at one point or another, you’d be surprised that they are also the same people who will make you feel like you’re the worst human alive. When that time comes, you wouldn’t even know what actually hit you.

As I’ve mentioned in the first part, tests of friendships are inevitable. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been friends, the tests are just the gigs and you just have to deal with them. BUT! One can only take so much.

If you have a friend that has been putting you down consistently, and then forgetting all about it, then doing it again, you SHOULD rethink your relationship.

I have learned the hard way that YOU could actually ‘un-friend’ someone. As ugly as the thought of that may be, some people just don’t know how to be a friend in return and you will be left with no better choice than to just walk away from that friendship and be better. 

Some might think that the idea of that might lose the whole point of being A FRIEND, but I say not really. You can only do so much as a friend and if that person keeps on wronging you even after you have changed your strategies so many times just to keep the friendship together, you are left with no better choice. 

You CANNOT stay in a relationship that brings you tears, doubts and disappointments CONSTANTLY. You just CANNOT be in an unhealthy relationship because soon, you too, will be unhealthy and you wouldn’t even be able to recognize your own self. 

You cannot let people drag you down and dampen your spirits just because they can. Always remember that a TRUE FRIEND will not make you feel bad about yourself, especially when you don’t deserve it. A TRUE FRIEND will not lie to your face, talk behind your back again and again, single you out everytime he/she has that chance, and a TRUE FRIEND will not anticipate your failure. 

A TRUE FRIEND will tell you the truth bluntly to make you stronger and better. A TRUE FRIEND will tell you first what’s wrong rather than blabbing it to other people. A TRUE FRIEND will push you to do your best and will help you be a better person. A TRUE FRIEND will not do things to make you down intentionally. A TRUE FRIEND becomes family. 

Just like my favorite line from a song goes, “Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.”

Some things are just not worth fighting for, and that’s a fact. 

Something New

For some reason, I couldn't find my old blog. I think it was deactivated since I haven't visited it in such a long time (4 years, LOL).

Anyway, this would be my new blog, and I hope this time, I'd be able to publish interesting articles. 

I just missed writing. -sigh-

Toodles!